In case you know me well enough, you must have noticed there’s something wrong with me lately. If you don’t know me that well, you may just think I’m a grumpy blogger that’s doing really bad at social media and networking. Or maybe I am better than I think at hiding stuff, and you didn’t realize anything. This is not the point anyway.
The thing is that I am not ok.
Actually, now that I finally have the guts to write this, I am doing better. Fact is, I don’t write this blog for the stats. I know it’s almost a full time job and all now and I am grateful for this, but it’s still my personal blog and I am very bad at pretending that everything is ok when it’s not. This is probably one of my biggest lacks, but be assured at least I never lie: I simply didn’t feel like writing these days, and I didn’t.
If you never had a panic attack in your life, you may want to leave this page now. If you know someone who suffers from panic attacks, or if you are one of the ‘lucky ones’ like me, maybe you should read on. My aim is to help the ones who suffer to overcome this horrible, distressing state of mind and start living again. If I succeed helping even just one person, I will be very happy.
2012 was a fantastic year for me, at least until July. I visited 10 countries in half year (Italy, UK, St Vincent and Grenadines, The Netherlands, Turkey, Cyprus, Jordan, Israel, Palestine and Egypt) and had my #MEtrip during which I was very happy and relaxed.
As soon as I arrived to Egypt though, I started having weird experiences that led me to a deep disillusionment and disappointment… I was planning to buy a house in Cairo, and I suddenly hated that place. Can you imagine? All my plans and dreams were falling apart, and this is not all: the place where I once felt so comfortable looked like hell to me now. I cried so many times. I started feeling anxious and even thought I had some issue with my breathing apparatus – having 2 day jobs definitely didn’t help, and most of the time by the end of the day I was so exhausted I couldn’t breathe.
Finally my working contract ended and I was finally free for 2 months: I was going to travel again! My mother joined me and we left for the desert. My anxiety disappeared, and I was loving my life again. I was actually thinking about writing a post about the therapeutic power of the desert against anxiety – if you think you will feel more anxious in the middle of the desert, you’re wrong. There’s nothing to be anxious about in the desert, believe me.
Then one day we woke up at 5am to see the sunrise. It was beautiful. A white fox ate my camera strap that morning. It made me laugh. We left the White Desert and headed south to the Dakhla Oasis. We crashed, my right arm was suddenly broken and painful.
I resisted more than 10 hours before reaching the closest hospital. During these endless hours I told my mother
I know, I am being strong now, but as soon as I relax… it will hit me. I know.
She didn’t believe me.
The day after the accident, we were in the Kharga Oasis. We visited a beautiful Christian cemetery and I was still ok. Then there was a moment in which we -me, my mom, the guide and driver- all relaxed, and bursted out laughing. I was doomed. My first panic attack came minutes later, and I can say it never ended until days later.
Well I don’t know what you think about long term travelers. You may think we are invincible and fearless. I tell you this ain’t true.
A nightmare. It’s like a nightmare. You are not yourself anymore. Someone took out your personality and made you numb. You feel like you’re losing your mind. All kinds of weird things start happening to you: you sweat, you can’t breathe, it feels like your heart doesn’t beat anymore, you can’t feel your hands and feet. Basically you are the victim of the worst fears you ever had, all at once. And there’s nothing that can help you because you are sure you’re dying and no one can understand.
Add all this to being in the middle of the desert, 3 days away from the main city, with a broken arm that hurts like hell and a brain concussion.
Then we reached Cairo. I felt better for a couple of hours. The following day we went to the beauty center and while riding a taxi on the way back home we had a minor fender bender. Normally that’s pretty normal in Cairo but not that day. I blacked out. I couldn’t breathe, see, talk or move anymore. Hours later, I was still lying on my bed and struggling to breathe.
I have no idea how I managed to fly to Italy the following night. Then I even attended the TBE conference and all. I thought that being back home everything was ok, but that was not the case yet. A few days later it hit me again, and the thought of even stepping out of my apartment’s door became unbearable. I cried myself to sleep so many times.
I thought I was never going to be the same again. My life was gone. One night I found myself watching a TV show where they showed scenes from India, and I cried. “I could never do that anymore”, I thought. I was desperate. I always say “travel is my oxygen” but it had been taken away from me. I was like a dead woman walking.
On a rare moment of lucidity, I decided I wanted to go to Iceland and see the Northern Lights on January. I was so excited and happy. Shortly after, it felt like a curse. I thought I could never get on a plane again and be away from home for a whole week. Picture this: a full time traveler that doesn’t feel like traveling anymore. How ridiculous!
Then something happened. One night I had another crisis, and told my mother my life was over. The following day, all tears, I called my shrink (oh no this is not the first time I go through something like this!) and scheduled an appointment. In the meantime, I attended my monthly 3-days meditation session even though I thought I couldn’t even ride the train all the way to that place, but I managed to do it. Everything started to change. In three days only I felt like I was healing. I went to the shrink and I was already feeling great, and didn’t even know what to tell him. Weird, because the two approaches are very different and I apparently went for the hardest one: while my psychologist tells me to (try and) ignore the attack when it comes, my meditation guide says I have to “enjoy the ride”: I have to accept it and get through it all the way until it’s gone. Sounds crazy huh? Well since I started doing this, everything kept going better and better.
This was about 1 month ago. I am still not 100% ok as I write, but I am definitely having a life again. I never had a panic attack anymore, and I only feel a bit anxious sometimes. Things that may sound so simple to everyone else -riding a bus, having dinner at the restaurant- now feel like an everyday conquest. I never felt so happy to ride a train and look outside of the window, rejoicing at my ability to breathe. Isn’t this the spirit of meditation after all?
I am now going to give you my advice, in case you’re going through something similar. I know what you will be thinking when you read it. “You are ok now so it’s easy to talk for you!“. No it’s not. I am still not ok, but at least I have a life now! When you have a moment of tranquility between your attacks you can read this and understand the concept, and keep it in mind when the next episode occurs. It will take some time but you will see the result, I can say this for sure. Here it is:
Don’t be scared. I KNOW how terrified you are, but still. No fear. You have to understand this is your spirit talking to you and there’s just one thing you can do: let it speak. If you oppose it, it won’t leave. If you let it flow, it will pass. Whenever you feel like anxiety is coming, focus on your heart. When you can feel it your fear will leave and no panic attack will occur. And if it does, just let it go, and remember you’re not going to die from it. Actually nothing will happen. Do you feel like sitting down? Sit down. Do you feel like lying down? Lay down. You are not alone and there’s nothing wrong with you. Don’t take stupid medicines. They don’t cure anything, they just cover the symptoms and the fact that day after day you need to take them again simply means you’re not ok yet. So stop prolonging your suffering and let it go. It shall pass.
Believe me, I know how the thought of travel is absurd when you suffer from anxiety and panic attacks. I just don’t want anyone to give up on his dreams because of this disorder. I believe the problem is that most of the times panic attacks and anxiety are not treated in the right way. You just have to accept the situation, love yourself, focus on your breathing, and remember not to be scared. Listen to your feelings, don’t suffocate them.
If you need help or advice, please feel free to ask. As I said before, I want to help other people that are going through the same experience. I would be happy to hear your stories. Talking about it helps a lot already.
And concerning myself, maybe it’s just that I’m tired and I’ve been too demanding with myself. Maybe I just need some time to take care of myself, both physically and spiritually. I don’t know. I think I have to take it easy a little bit more from now on. Moreover, my arm is not doing good at all. They told me it will take 2 more months at least in order to heal. I even stopped planning stuff.
No “best of 2012” posts for me. No 2013 resolutions post for me. I just have to be ok first, and then I will do what I feel like doing.
Happy new year everyone and thanks for reading.
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Giulia, thanks for sharing this post! It took a lot of courage and I think you will inspire others to realize traveling isn’t “fun” all the time and even travel bloggers can have moments of dread and panic. I could definitely relate to your post. I’m sorry Egypt has been so disillusioning– I know you were the biggest supporter of Egypt travel right after the revolution. But I’m glad you are feeling better. Here’s to a happy and successful 2013!
Hi Leslie! I have no idea why your comment ended up in the spam folder. WordPress mysteries! I don’t know to what extent it was “Egypt’s fault”, or if the fact that I didn’t enjoy this time also depended on something inside of me that was changing. Of course I will give Egypt another chance… but now I am taking my time and avoiding stress as much as I can. Happy new year to you too! Big hug and thanks for stopping by.
I think it was so brave of you to write this very honest post. A traveling life is, by a long shot, not perfect and great all the time and can bring a ton of stresses along with it. I’ve had panic attacks too, mostly in the past, but never prolonged like yours have been. I feel for you. I hope you heal completely in the very near future so you can live the life you want :)
Thanks for your support, Sabina:) I am doing better and I know everything will be ok at some point… I will go back to my life asap!
Sorry to hear you went through this too. I had panic attacks in the past as well… it was until 2007 and I thought I overcame them forever. I was wrong, now I know it may happen again in the future, but the problem is that every time it’s really scary. Hopefully this episode taught me how to react in the right way. And this post will be a good reminder for my future! Thank you very much and see you soon in Egypt inshallah. :)
Hi Giulia, I just had to tell you I’ve been there too, about 4 years ago, full on anxiety and panic attacks. I had no idea what it was, I thought my life really was as bad as I thought it was and then, suddenly, one day I couldn’t breath if I went outside. It’s taken a long time to get better. Phase one was getting a doctor to talk to me and actually acknowledge that I was unwell. We did a quiz type mental and physical health assessment, he said if I’d scored 1 point higher I’d probably be in hospital. After that things started improving, I took myself in hand and got acupuncture, massages, started running, but there were lots of physical problems that came with it, reflux, ulcers, muscle spasms, all sorts of weird stuff that left me in pain for years. I’m fine now, absolutely great. Not taking drugs is the biggest thing you can do to help yourself, I think. I tried for a day or so and then threw them in the bin. Well done for posting this. ( I think magnesium supplements help me a lot)
Hi Alyson, thanks for sharing your story with me. I also started having all kinds of little diseases such as reflux, 2 times flu, and then of course my arm that is still in the healing process. It’s being a demanding time but I am sure I’ll be ok. Thanks for the suggestion on magnesium, will ask my doctor about it. And I also agree that sports help a lot… even just walking around is giving me a lot of good energy. Glad to know you’re doing better!
It feels so good to know that another traveler went through the same thing I did. I had family issues that made it really bad. I was afraid to leave the house and felt like my life was over like you did. But I am so much better now, it was not an easy process thats for sure. I went back to therapy twice a week and he showed me how to recognize when it is occurring and when I do, take 3-4 deep breaths, not from your lungs but do abdominal breathing where your abdomen rises. That helped a lot. I started going to the gym and that was the only place where I did not have anxiety, my mind was clear for the time I was there. I also started doing yoga which also incorporates deep breathing and mediation.
Once you learn to control it, it gives you a freeing feeling that you will not allow anxiety to control you. I still struggle with it everyday but I tell myself, “why am I afraid?” “Do I really have a reason to be scared?” and simple questions like that usually can calm me down. I hate the times where it comes out of no where and in your mind you know you are not anxious but you are having the physiological symptoms of it. But I usually just breath and try to relax.
I was put on meds and they did work for the time I was in therapy to get through my issues but after 2 years, I realized I didn’t not feel my emotions anymore. I felt numb. If I was sad, I wanted to feel sad, if I was anxious, then I wanted to feel anxious. Anxiety is a natural occurrence in the body. It is our flight or fight response, without it we probably wouldn’t survive. It keeps us safe from harmful situations. But obviously like you and I, it goes into overdrive when it shouldn’t. But things will definitely get better, I thought I wouldn’t and I did.
And its funny because traveling is something too, that helped my anxiety. It was a different kind of anxiety of being in a new place, meeting new people, and food etc. that made me appreciate it. I do have my moments where I get anxious but now I have tools to help me diminish the symptoms. I also like the scent of fresh lavender, I have little baggies full of it and when I feel stressed out or anxious I deeply breath it in. It really helps.
I hope everything gets better for you and I know it will. But if you want someone to talk to, who has been there, feel free to contact me. I know the feeling way too well.
Take care :)
I am also thinking about going to the gym and especially about yoga, but I have to wait until my arm is ok… this may take a few more months. I am already doing a lot better thanks to meditation… it sounds crazy but it’s the truth!
When I feel anxiety coming I also tell myself there’s nothing to be anxious about, and it usually helps. But now it’s a very smaller issue than before: I am not sure I could have this kind of rational thought during the main crisis that lasted about 2 weeks. Breathing is definitely the key though.
Good that you quit the meds:)
Travel will help me as well, I am now thinking about traveling again, which is a good sign. But just a bit more than a month ago I was invited to Barcelona, Spain (a very short flight from here) and I couldn’t even imagine stepping out of my apartment, so I declined. I can’t believe it was so bad. So there’s a time for staying “at home” and relax, and then travel will do the rest when I’m ready!
Thank you very much for sharing your story with me. It’s comforting to know what someone understands me :) Big hug!
I know this is a super late reply but I found a great way to overcome anxiety and panic attacks and I thought of you. Maybe this would be some benefit to you and its simple and easy you can do it on your laptop, which is perfect for us travelers! :) Its worked wonders for me and hopefully for you as well. Check it out http://mypanicfreelife.com
Hope everything is fantastic with you! xx
Thanks Laura, I appreciate your thought. I will have a look at it :)
Wow Giulia, I had no idea!! I thought u were just having a break in writing and travelling… It must have been so horrible! Thank God u are an intelligent and brave person and managed to get out of it! Im so glad u are doing better now!! U’ll see how soon u are yourself again, but anyways, there is no rush, u have all the time in the world and still all your life to enjoy and LIVE, so get 100% well soon sweetheart and let us know!!!! That will make me so happy!!
Take care :)
Hey Maria, thank you very much for your kind words. I know I will be ok again soon, I am already doing much better and I am bringing my smile back onto my face:) Will be back to my travels asap! xoxo
Thanks for sharing this with us Giulia! I’m sure it wasn’t easy to write or to even hit publish, but it always helps other people to know they’re not alone. I’ve never had a real panic attack, so I can’t imagine what you’ve gone through and are still dealing with. I’ve had my own depression issues and felt like I couldn’t move, and you’re right, you do have to accept it and work through it, and you will be ok. I hate that your arm is giving you such trouble, but hopefully it will heal soon. I hope you can get back to traveling soon. Since that’s something you love so much, or at least did until recently, it might also help you heal mentally and spiritually to get back out there again. But take your time and relax at home and take care of yourself. HUGS!
I spent 2 days thinking if it was a good idea hitting the “publish” button but in the end I did… Because this is my personal blog after all so why hiding who I really am? In the end, I am happy I did, because I can see so many people are supporting me and sharing their own stories. Speaking out is a big help and I just realized it. Sorry to hear you had a similar experience with depression, but I am starting to think everyone goes through something like this at some point… and knowing we are not alone is a big help! Thank you very much Ali and hugs back to you!
Man, Giulia, you about tore my heart out with this post! Believe it or not, I can truly sympathize with you as you speak about dealing with the fear of having to step out your door, and feeling like your life is over. Although my issue may not be that of ‘panic attacks’ the internal terror and debilitating emotions are similar. I can only imagine what strength it must have take for you to write this up and post this for the world to read. For myself, I always take the easier way out and pretend everything is all good. Heck, I even considered being all chicken about it and masking my name and leaving this message to you anonymously. I wondered, for a moment, how you could POSSIBLY do it, be brave enough to put your heart out there like this. And then I reread your post, and realized why I followed you 2 years ago, and why I still follow you now.
You said: “If you need help or advice, please feel free to ask.”
You were the one who reached out to me years ago when I just started blogging. Even after I disappeared for 2 years from the scene, and reappeared a little more than a month ago, it was YOU who reached out to me again and made note of my absence. Your inner character of steel balanced with empathy is what makes us all follow you and think of you at this time. And something that works for me, no matter how deep the terror and how hopeless you may feel at times, please know that there are MANY people around the world who can see you for who you really are. A kind, selfless and meaningful individual. Please enjoy the time you are taking off, and get back to yourself!
THANK YOU so much for your words, I am really moved. Didn’t mean to tear your heart out:)
I appreciate your support and I’m sorry you went through something similar to this…
Why did you think about writing the comment anonymously though?:))
Thanks for your reply! And interesting question, hmmm…I guess what it comes down to for me is that I am in truth a fiercely private person when it comes to my personal life, and I do not have a ‘personal’ blog for myself online. The Drifters Blog is my online presence, and I am still finding a balance of showing my personal self there while keeping it inspiring and informative at the same time, you know, keep it in line with the whole mission statement. I don’t look at that as a platform to expose myself completely. To be honest, only one other person in my life knows that I have gone through something similar to what you’ve expressed, so that’s why I was thinking of keeping it anonymous. I have a hard time being transparent, both online and in real life, when it comes to personal negativity or discouraging qualities about myself, but I’m learning more and more about the importance of transparency.
It’s crazy how I also have problems talking about these matters with people surrounding me (like, my father has no idea) but I find it easier when I write about it on my blog. Anyway, in case you change your mind, I can always edit your comment and hide your name. No worries, I respect it. All the best to you:)
Hi Giulia,
Firstly, big hugs and glad to hear you’re starting to heal :)
Panic attacks are horrible. I used to suffer from extremely severe ones around 5 years ago. I couldn’t leave the house, I couldn’t eat, I basically laid in bed for an entire year unable to move or function! Ugh!
I also didn’t take any medications. I’m not sure if this was a good idea or not — I was living on one apple a day and nothing more so I lost SO much weight! I was too afraid to ask for help though… Anyway, part of me is glad I struggled through on my own because recovering from anxiety by myself has made me such a strong person! I feel like if I could do that then I can do anything! :)
It does get a lot better. The panic attacks get much less frequent and you learn to deal with them better. Back then, when I couldn’t even leave the house, there was no way I thought I’d ever be able to travel… But I’ve been going for 18 months now and have only had two panic attacks during that time.
I hope you continue to get better and better and ill always be around to chat if you like :)
Hey Lauren, wow, I had to read your comment multiple times. That’s a touching story. I also had something similar a couple of years ago, that lasted about 1 year and a half: I wouldn’t eat anything for days, I lived on honey and lollipops, and lost so much weight too. After the “peak” though, I had a trip and even though I was scared that actually helped the healing process. I consider that trip as the moment I finally recovered. Weird!
Great job on recovering without medicines, thumbs up… this is the typical case when one would say “what doesn’t kill me, makes me stronger”. So true! You go girl :)
Respect,and hope you`ll never go through such pain ever again
May inner peace be ever your companion ya Giulia :)
Thanks ya Ahmed:) you’re always so kind. Great to hear from you since I couldn’t see you on FB anymore, but I realized you deleted your profile and that was actually a great choice… wish I could do that too sometimes!
Hope to see you soon and have fun together again… now you know why in Cairo I was a bit on the weird side last time. Hug!
Ah…what a post! i think it’s destiny that i discovered your blog just now.
I too suffer from panic attacks and general anxiety since i was born basically :)
But most importantly..i had a really bad panic attack 2 days ago, after years of being OK. So it was quite a shock for me, as i have completely forgotten how scary a panic attack can be (self preservation right??)
Reading your post i could definitely feel the pain, the fear and the strength you must have had to overcome this difficult period…
You know i think that people who have this “problem” are not that weak after all. We are maybe over sensitive, or just less lucky than others :)
But we carry on, we travel, we fight against it and we often win. And we are strong, very strong. Nonetheless, i couldnt wait to read your advice at the end of the post lol
And i totally agree with you…we should embrace the fear, and actually 2 days ago it was just applying this concept that i managed to overcome the Beast.
In the end i was exausted! 6 or more hours suffering and thinking about every sort of illness: i passed from having a heart attack, to cancer, to paralysis and so on.
At some point i put myself together for 1 second and i thought “hey, it’s IMPOSSIBLE that i have so many things all together! i’m not going to die tonight!” and i even smiled about dying of 4 different pathologies, what a woman! ahah :) so there it was…my panic subsided and i was able to breath again! But it’s a fight, i know, now i put in on laughing but i was in serious trouble the other night.
Thank you for sharing this! i think it’s not easy to write about such sensitive subjects and you prove that you are very brave.
I wish you all the best but im sure you are going to be great soon!
(And i wish the same for me since i’m leaving in 1 month for the trip of my life :P )
Hey Kle. Welcome to my blog and thanks for your lovely comment.
Ironic how yours is called “Keep calm and travel” but you just had a panic attack… hehe sorry I had to make a joke about it:)
Personally, it’s somehow comforting to find out that all these “fearless, unbreakable” travelers I virtually live surrounded by can have moments of weakness just like me.
After I wrote this post I started to feel more comfortable with this “disease” and even found myself smiling about it just like you!
I am sure your trip will be amazing and I can imagine your panic attack was related to all the emotions you are keeping inside at the moment – nothing weird about it. But soon you’ll be living your dream and all the anxiety will be just a memory:) At least this is my wish to you! I’m here anytime if you want to chat. Ciao!
Ciao Giulia!
I just wanted to thank you for the warm welcome :) and also tell u that your website rocks! i was searching for the “subscribe” button but i couldnt find it anywhere (or i’m blind, which is totally likely)
Oh and regarding my blog’s name..ahah yes you are right, quite a joke! i made a very similar joke in one of my first posts, because people who know me well are aware of all my weaknesses, including my anxiety.
Well i’m thankful that we are not alone in this and think about it: not only you are living a “normal life” despite what you’ve been through but you are also living a totally AWESOME one! and many people are just dreaming about a life like yours.
So Cheers to that!
Hey, I didn’t realize you were Italian. But I’ll keep writing in English anyway:)
Thanks for all the compliments – what do you mean by “subscribe”? I have a newsletter subscription form on my homepage, and a RSS feed button on every page. Let me know if you need anything else!
Thanks again for all your support and nice words. They put a smile on my face! Cheers!
Hello Miss Giulia!
I really admire you from all your travels and write-ups. It really inspires me a lot, especially that I cannot go on for travels myself. I am sorry to hear that you have experienced such panic. That’s why I would like to help you cure those panic attacks naturally. So, if you have time please visit
http://curepanicattackv.com/cure-panic-attacks-naturally.
Hope that you’ll be well soon :) LOVE lots…
Hi Paul,
thanks for your support. I am already feeling much better now, but who knows, maybe your link could help someone else! Will leave it as it is.
Bravo!!! Travel bloggers do tend to represent themselves as invincible folk who have mastered the world. It is inspiring to know that you can still be real and travel the world.
Thank you for your generous spirit that allowed you to share your truth. Enjoy the time your body is demanding to rest – the world will always be there :-)
~ Andrea
Hi Andrea! Thanks for stopping by.
Yes, I also have this feeling that travel bloggers look “invincible folks who master the world”… well I can’t speak in general, but this is definitely not my case! I mean, of course in my travels there are many, many moments of “I am invincible” mood, but saying that I feel invincible every day would be a huge lie… Curious to know if the invincible bloggers out there also have moments of weakness?
For now, I will give my body and my mind what they need for now -to rest- before I keep on conquering the world:)
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Hei Giulia, yes i’m Italian too :)
and by the way.. i wish my English was at the same level as yours!
What i meant was the Newsletter subscription which i didnt found the other night of course!! Thank you!
Cheers!
Giulia,
You are an inspiration and I love your powerful advice to “Listen to your feelings, don’t suffocate them”.
When I had overcome my panic attacks I loved travelling and went away as much as I could then a few years ago they hit again when I was away, right out of the blue, and I was floored as I had forgotten what to do because it was so long since I’d had one. It took all my courage to get home and a long while to go away again. As I teach others to overcome panic I felt a terrible fraud though in recovering the right way this time it has strengthened me and enabled me to show others how to take setback into their stride.
Thank you for such a wonderful story and good luck with your future travels!
Nicola
Hi Nicola! I know what you’ve been through. I had something similar some years ago, but when it happened again I was totally unprepared. This time though, I feel like I have a deeper understanding of the situation, and that I am “healing the right way”.
Thanks for sharing your experience!
Hi Giulia, your advice, let it speak, is really helpful. during the attack, even though i heard my thoughts but most of the times i didn’t want to listen to them. when i started to listen to them, i begin to realize what the problem really is about. thanks for your encouraging and inspiring post :)
Thanks and good luck:)
Thank you so much for sharing this, just what I needed to read right now. Since a year I am having these panic attacks. I also broke my arm last year in the desert in Israel. since then I can’t do yoga anymore, and I am totally afraid to go on trips, me , a veteran traveller who was in India many times all by myself. Now I am afraid to be on an airplane or going to my beloved India. You gave me hope that I can overcome this , I am working on it. Thank you again so much for your honesty!
Hi Brigitte,
I know how it feels:( Oh my, you have such a similar story!
But you have to keep in mind that the way you feel doesn’t really depend on where you are. So you can travel and go to India… you may find out it was easier than you thought. But I also understand you’re scared.
So take your time. I hope you’ll be ok soon.
Big hug and good luck!
I would love to talk to you more. I have suffered from panic attacks for over 15 years and travel is one of the biggest triggers.
Feel free to send me an email:)
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