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Now that I think about it, I changed so much in the last year or so.
By any means I don’t want to make aaany drama. But I just want to share my thoughts with you.
I find myself writing about sunbathing, bikinis and beach life. I would have never, ever written anything like this until, say, end of 2009.
Until then I never liked going to the beach. You will never see a picture of me in my bikini unless it’s from when I was a child. So, beach holidays are quite a new thing to me. I can’t believe I was missing all this! But in a way it’s great because now for me going to the beach feels so special. I never liked going to the beach because I was so stupid that I felt ashamed of showing my body to other people. So I used to spend my summers at home, and I was fine with it.
Yeah, I’ve never been in perfect shape and I’m not yet. But something changed, and now I just don’t give a damn anymore.
When I had my accident, just a few days more than a year ago, I used to hate my body. Then when I was laying on the snow waiting for the helicopter to take me to the hospital, I had a series of very scary thoughts: “what if I will never walk again? What if this, and what if that?” – the doctors spoke about spinal fracture, and I felt like my heart stopped beating for a second.
I spent 4 months wearing a hideous orthopaedic corset, but the good news was that I knew I could start walking again and having a normal life after that. And even if I went through different stages and moods – including rage and depression – I promised myself “no more paranoias about your body: it’s perfect as it is, just because it works“.
Do you know what it feels like when you have a broken vertebra? It feels like all your body is broken. Because of a small, little tiny piece of bone, you can’t do anything anymore.
The first thing I did when I removed the bust was going to the sea for a month.
Me on the beach in Isca Marina, Italy. Aug 2010
And I didn’t care if I was in shape or not. Actually I wasn’t, can you imagine how tonic is your body after 4 months of inactivity? But who cares?
Is everyone else on the beach perfect? Don’t they have something better to do than looking at your belly? Is being fatty a real problem? I realised real problems are something very different. Not being able to walk is a problem.
I have a “Buddha belly”, (as me and lovely Juno call it) and I can walk, run, dance, swim, cry, laugh, eat, talk, see, hear, travel, have fun, be pissed and be happy, make love, live. So who cares.
Not sure it’s a Buddha… but the belly is there!
To all the shy ladies out there with a Buddha belly: you’re perfect. Take out your bikinis, your shorts, your skirt or whatever it is. Be natural. Don’t hide. Why hiding after all?
If someone thinks you’re ugly because of your extra 5 kilos, he’s so shallow he doesn’t even deserve your attention. Leave him to Paris Hilton and go enjoy your life:)
How many Buddha belly ladies are out there? Join the club!
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I like beer and food too much to try to be perfect. I’m all about my bikini and the beach!
Yay, way to go Erica!
I was sure there were more cool ladies out there : )
brava, girlfriend! as someone with disabilities, i am just so happy to be alive and moving around (albeit differently than pre-accident) that i am grateful to be AT the beach. love this!
Thank you so much for your comment, I don’t know what happened to you but you can definitely understand what I mean. It’s amazing how such things change our perception of everything in life. I wish you all the best and a lot of fun at the beach or wherever you will go! : )
Great post, and perfect timing to inspire me not to care about my own buddha belly – lots of Central American beach time coming up for me!
Enjoy it to the max! Your Buddha belly will enjoy the sun too : )
Glad my Buddha belly comment sticks! :) It is what makes us human.. I think, and I hope?
Funny, I thought the same thing. Generally, I’m really a ‘big’ girl in many ways. I’m to tall, I have big feet, and even I have buddha belly. And I was ashamed of it for quite a long time. Then I traveled, and I found out I’m not a big girl at all, and I don’t have to ashamed of myself. From what? It’s all about confidence.
Great post sis. I agree with you in every sentence.
Thanks hun! Yep it’s all about confidence:) Not that I’m a super confident person but at least now I can enjoy my beach holidays! Wohooo :)
Oh, hun. I wish I had your confidence. I have a Buddha belly but I’m also very very heavy around the hips and thighs. :P
But, saying that, I can actually kind of relate to you. I broke my foot last week and have been doing nothing but sitting around feeling disgusting waiting for it to heal. It’s made me so grateful for the ability to walk and run that the first thing I want to do when I’m healed is go for a run, go for hikes, do more exercise, just enjoy my life! :)
Hey Ceri, yes I read about your foot and I’m very sorry about it! Be strong! And when it heals you’ll enjoy the ability to move around sooo much. That’s why every cloud has a silver lining!
Am odd man out here commenting among girly discussion thread but what makes me to comment is one statement and i couldn`t stop laughing…simple love it”Leave him to Paris Hilton and go enjoy your life:)” hehe.. ur cruel giulia…lol…loved the spirit..you rocks as usual!!
Budda Belly, what is there not to like? Great picture of you on the beach.
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